The main question is it time to move on or do one more year. Enjoyment of where I am is not in question. Is what I am doing with my time here that gives me reason for pause.
Most of the things I do are normal average everyday office work and documentary photography. There is not much time spent for personal development. This a key thing since I am working here on a volunteer basis. Having time to do some spiritual, educational development is my only real compensation.
I have tried in the past to arrange classes for such topics of study like Buddhist philosophy and Tibetan language. The result is that the class only works out for a few weeks until either the teacher is too busy or my work gets in the way. Thus putting me back a square one....which is just doing mundane work which has no end.
The work is not the problem the balance of work and personal stuffs is the problem. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. If I am just going to work the entire time then I should be back in the USA so I can get paid for the work I do. Then I can use the money to have fun in my free time and saving some for that 'old and gray' part of the life cycle.
So for now I am thinking that if things do not wish to change then one more year to finish up the projects I started so they can be passed on to the next person. Then head back to the 'first-world' country to join the work-a-day world of,
sleep-work, work-work, sleep-work -> PayDay
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Friday, December 02, 2005
Change for the better
Wandering the world does not change what is inside your mind. You many have new perspectives and some opinions may be changed. Mostly the experience can show you many good reasons for self-change. However, overcoming the tough personal challenges can only be by our own effort. By having the courage to face our problems and deal with them.
Wondering what-could-have-been or wishing and hoping for an easier way out, does nothing to help us reach our goal of being happy. After we have spent a large amount of time and energy, ignoring what we wish to change in the end only gives us a loss of precious resource of life and our feet are still firmly on the starting line.
We are driven to change because we don't enjoy the feeling of weight on our shoulders from goals left until tomorrow. The unfinished business we have within ourselves is something, which will not go away.
Deep down we instinctively know that by working to be a better person has a lasting reward of peace of mind. Peaceful feelings that stay with us and helps us to give us balance in chaotic ups and downs of our daily life. The fear of facing our own problems can be so overwhelming that we lose sight of the happy conclusion.
This fear comes out of our idea that we have staked so much in who we are now that our identity seems bonded to it. That we will stay as we are right now, forever. The idea of change is thus associated with the loss of our self, as we know it.
To make these necessary changes from within we must let go of thinking of our self as a solid unchanging being. Remind ourselves that life is dynamic. It is changing all the time. That change is what gives this life beauty and hope.
Wondering what-could-have-been or wishing and hoping for an easier way out, does nothing to help us reach our goal of being happy. After we have spent a large amount of time and energy, ignoring what we wish to change in the end only gives us a loss of precious resource of life and our feet are still firmly on the starting line.
We are driven to change because we don't enjoy the feeling of weight on our shoulders from goals left until tomorrow. The unfinished business we have within ourselves is something, which will not go away.
Deep down we instinctively know that by working to be a better person has a lasting reward of peace of mind. Peaceful feelings that stay with us and helps us to give us balance in chaotic ups and downs of our daily life. The fear of facing our own problems can be so overwhelming that we lose sight of the happy conclusion.
This fear comes out of our idea that we have staked so much in who we are now that our identity seems bonded to it. That we will stay as we are right now, forever. The idea of change is thus associated with the loss of our self, as we know it.
To make these necessary changes from within we must let go of thinking of our self as a solid unchanging being. Remind ourselves that life is dynamic. It is changing all the time. That change is what gives this life beauty and hope.
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